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Things in my life are ok at the mo. I’ve got a fantastic husband, a fantastic best friend, a fantastic job.

However, I find myself wondering what exactly I was put on this earth to do. I guess I’ve reached a point and I’m not sure where to go and what to do. I’m at a blank page.

I hate my house, but I’m stuck with that. We can’t really afford to get a new kitchen, but we need to before I “accidentally” set fire to it so we can claim on the insurance.

I’m never going to get where I want to get with my singing. The guys in the band decided they didn’t want to go any further with it. The drummer had a better offer and the keyboard player wasn’t really interested. And as much as I wanted my singing lessons, I’m not enjoying them as much as I thought I would coz he’s got me singing rubbish show songs. That’s not my thing.

I’ve become fat and frumpy.

So what am I here to do?

Be a good wife? Well I can’t really with the state that the kitchen is in. I know you probably think I’m blowing it out of proportion, but I’m really not. Hubby’s working really hard to get this piece of work finished in the hope that he gets a bonus which will help the funding of the new kitchen. But that means he’s working late a lot. It’s not his fault, but I haven’t really seen much of him the last week.

Use the only talent I have to get some extra dosh? Hardly. I need a band to be in if I’m going to take it any further, and even then, who says anyone would want to hire us?

Be a sex kitten? Not when I look like this.

Be a mother? I’m even starting to doubt that. Plus, that wouldn’t do anything for my already declining figure.

I’m stuck.


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